Ambivalent Heart

Still feeling angry.

Still feeling hurt and betrayed.

But damn! I miss you.

Through the Looking Glass

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I stand spectating.
Wonderland can be trying,
But you’ll get through it.

Haiku of Fear and Blood

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The things they teach you:
Don’t cross the low-water bridge.
Live the illusion.

A Lesson

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What lessons can be learnt amidst chaos?

Betrayal can’t always be blamed on the one hurling deceptions, but it doesn’t make it hurt less or trust more.

Self sabotage does not exist in a vacuum… neither does love… neither does pain… same thing.

Shaking the vending machine will not get you your money back.

A Care-full Haiku

A Care-full Haiku

How does one show care?
Remembering little things,
Not expecting praise.

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To Be Continued…

To Be Continued...

Or should I say part two?
Can something be continued once it has ended?
The characters may all look the same, yes, but their internal landscapes have changed.
We have all been affected by our surroundings…by one another.
And what is it we are looking for? A continuation of “what was”?
Because a past not learned from, not set free, is a history doomed to repeat itself.
Sounds a bit naive, perhaps even a bit stagnant, to me…but more on that later…

(To be continued…)

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Not Exactly… (Only Better).

Not Exactly... (Only Better).

Not exactly what was on the list,
but lists are just paper with words
and you are light and wonder and full of good.

Not exactly the way I would have planned it out,
but Audoni works in the way Audoni wants
and we walk the path we are on.
And learn, live, love and sometimes lose along the way.

Not exactly the way I would have ended it,
because if the choice were mine I would never end you,
but loving means wanting the one you love happy,
happy where ever and whatever that means.

Not exactly what was on the list,
but lists are just paper with words
and you are light and wonder and full of good.

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